Tiny Moment

Is this then that first tiny moment?
But perhaps it's moment thousand
Dizziness and my wrenching cough
Did Orwell suffer through similar?
Have I suffered through anything?
Is it mould in my lungs or anxiety?
This constant anxiety long endured
Must accumulate toward an end?
Strengthen character or wisdom?
She advised my personality problem
Caused by suffering tiny moments?
Or a problem without cause problem
Recalling these thousand failed cures