Fizzling Out

The thinking now is that I'll probably just fizzle out
Not like Theia impacting with Earth spectacularly
More like a rocket ship people held high hopes for
Which sort of falls down after rising for a few seconds
You've seen the vision of it on those launch pads
Kind of comical really with the big explosion and all
Scientists looking at each other saying 'ah fuck it'
Well that's how things are going with me right now
Except that any expectations are all in my own head
I don't think anyone else expects anything from me
They moved on from hope of my promise years ago
I've held on to ideas of being noticed by someone
Hilariously waiting around for any type of 'big break'
It'll not come I'm sad to report, it just won't come
Now I practise the 'each day as it comes' of the poor
(Because I am poor - who'll deny what is a clear fact?)
The organs are slowly packing up, energy levels down
And now trips to the place with the free-food queue
They say not to feel humiliated but instead feel grateful
But, sheesh, the rage that builds up inside one's body
I'll fizzle out-but maybe with my bits of rocket fuel aflame