Gaslit

Because I've been so gaslit
It's hard to know what my feelings are
Whenever I feel a feeling I always
Have to analyse whether it's correct or not
(As though there is such a thing as a correct feeling)
When I feel satisfied doing a task
It just happens, it just rears up on me
And I think 'oh I actually enjoyed that'
Rather than my usual roleplay:
Doing things that I really don't enjoy
Hoping and pretending that they're satisfying
Because someone once thought them worthwhile
Well that's parents for you hey